Questions and more questions.

Life is pretty random or rather say my choices are? Do I need to put more thoughts into my actions or more actions to my thoughts? Its a long journey of self learning, self evaluation and self help probably.

As you grow up, you will eventually learn that nothing goes as planned. There are obstructions, U-turns and unexpected falls and rise in life. The days when you think that the sky is just inches away from your stretched arms will probably cease to be and you suddenly realise the aches in the arms, that you couldn't lift them anymore and you'd actually start questioning if you really need to lift them at all. Then you see what's around because all this time you were busy stretching your arms and looking at the sky. You missed what was around all this time, what could have been yours and what could have been enjoyed together, cherished. Should we all be living life this way?

Of what not said

And when all is said and done, what is not left

You pack your bags, close the chapter and take up a pace;

Brisk walk, run, sashay or pretend to fly

It all comes down, one day;

Like everything else

All comes down to what’s left

Of what not said.

Words guilty, of not being spoken

Disguised truths, change of direction

Heart, head, mind and lungs

Blood, skin, fat and cells

Mere cover ups, pile on pile

Burns down to bits with regret

Of what not said.

Monologues with empty purposes

A body without a soul

Forgone chances, never returned

Outweighing words, sore throats

Burnt tongue, sealed lips

What can they probably speak?

Oh! Of what not said

Do you define or constrict?

It’s funny how I find things funny. Funny at times because no one else seems to find it funny. Human nature in itself is funny to me-the way we act and respond to the situations and how each of us deals and gives a personal touch and definitions to them.

Human nature continues to amaze me- the imperative need to label and give name and meaning and definition to each thing. Best friend, holiday, death, betrayal, trust….Are we really better off with this so called ever growing development and civilization? Has this smartness compared to other animals made us a better survivor or has it created more complexities to survive? Labeling and defining makes identification easier but sometimes do we really need an Identification? At times are we not happy just to let it be and not be constricted by the boundaries of definition? Where do you have a boundary when your mother is your best friend? Where do you have a boundary when your lover becomes your worst enemy? If labeling and identifying was so important why is it that the very nature of the thing that we try to label is dynamic in itself? What’s the use of giving me a name and changing it so often as the situation /role/proximity changes? Am I not better off if you don’t label me at all?

One might argue identification makes an individual unique, be it a noun or adjective. But thinking about it, don’t you think the words actually constrict the subject/object in question? That the word doesn’t quite well describe the multidimensional attributes? And do we really believe that there is anything unique in this world at all? People come and go, things have substitutes and replacements. In this sense no one is unique in itself. We, the perceivers, perceive it as unique because of the familiarity and attachment we have created with the subject/object. And this, my friend can be changed if we try and create the same with the other subject/object. Now not willing to do this is entirely a different thing.

Does a guy really need to say I love you, you are my girlfriend, and we are in a relationship? Does just saying so guarantee the claim is true? Do we call someone a best friend just because we shared our highs and lows and confided our deepest secrets? Who defines the criteria for best friend and is it really essential to tick all the boxes? If it is so, then don’t you think our life is merely a Mathematical formula based on the criterion?Now the dictionary defines the words, gives meaning to each but shouldn’t we consider the fact that dictionary is created, edited and regulated by a group of people? And it changes as the situation, society and way of living changes. Aren’t we all aware of how many new words have been added to the dictionary because of how people have been using it frequently in particular scenarios?

Now, I don’t even know why I am writing this or what I am trying to prove. It’s just something that struck me in my thoughts and I want to share/question the very existence of the system of definitions.

Do we really need it?



As I get comfortable doing nothing at home, missing the gym class that I had planned to go and doing nothing particularly interesting, I try to give possible plausible explanations to my laziness. And the best part is I come with none. What is it about this laziness then? Well I am aware that laziness takes you nowhere (I'm pretty sure everyone is) but why do we still be lazy and not do things that needs to be done. Is it the answer to everything in life? Is it THE SECRET ? Well everyone knows had the student not been lazy he would have passed the exams with flying colours or had Gandhi been lazy, he wouldnt have been able to bring such a revolution in India.

And despite the knowledge,we prefer laziness. Maybe its mainly because its easier to be lazy than to put in our efforts and hard work. And its only human to always take the easier way out. It takes a lot to be determined, put in your hard work and most importantly be consistent with it. And that's where most people fail and only few succeed. And my friends, those few are the ones whom we get to see and read about in papers. Success definitely doesn't come easy.

And still with dreams so high and ambitions beyond the vastness of ocean, I fail to be anything else but LAZY.. :(